Paranoia at its Finest

So I have this problem where I imply everything to be the absolute worst when I hear a simple statement. Well usually read a simple statement. Which tends to be a problem when a good chunk of my communication with Coty tends to be via text message.  I always assume the some underlying meaning underneath what he says. It's a pretty big point of contention between us since it's kind of a part of my crazy. That and when I infer those things it makes me convince myself that he doesn't really care. This is a big thing that kind of hangs around always in the back of my mind which I know is probably ridiculous but I don't know how to stop it. 

With that being said, I think sometimes he does try and egg me on and bring it out in me. Which really isn't all that fair. It doesn't teach me to get past it or avoid doing it in any way. Maybe it should but it doesn't. So really all that happens is me getting agitated so I want to learn to move past that. Reality: he's not going anywhere anytime soon. STOP with the convincing yourself he's about to leave at any second and implying that he needs time away from me or doesn't want to be with me or have a family or be married. How do I know that? How we both reacted to the prospect of actually breaking up last week. So give it a rest lady. And you should really know the difference: how many times does Coty tell you he likes to get you going?