Getting There...

So time for a semi-positive post:

I was feeling pretty self-pitying this time last weekend (I know, I know, to stop being like that was one of my goals... but alas I am fairly terrible at controlling my own emotions). But I've turned around my view of everything this week. While it felt reeeeally shitty at the time, what Coty said to me was on point, and I know it. Those who know me, know I'm stubborn, but once I realize someone else is right, I can admit it (some might not agree with me on that, but that's just because I'm usually right ;) ). But it made me completely refocus; I snapped out of my funk and started focusing on what I could do well right now: be successful at my current job and keep looking for jobs. And it kind of seemed like everything started falling into place all at once (maybe the stars do align when you have the right outlook... that's a little eerie). I got a call for a job interview in a couple of weeks with Shell (a big player I'd applied to) PLUS I've officially been given my own rigs to cover at work while a fellow engineer is gone to school for six weeks. Finally, I won't be idle anymore! I know that was a big reason I was going so crazy. And I'm sure I was driving Coty crazy: too much idle time gives me way too much time to think and come up with random paranoid shit. Plus, I know I bug him when he's trying to work... often. Everybody wins :D! Also helping him with some school stuff right now too which makes me feel useful (because when I'm idle I feel useLESS).

I also feel like when I'm in a better mood it's infectious. I didn't realize how much my negativity was dragging down those closest to me. Sorry babe! I know I've been a pain to deal with and I'm sooo glad I've finally started to claw my way back up out of this unreal funk I've been in. I guess sometimes I just need to be smacked in the face with the truth.

One more good thing this coming week (I know... I'm on a total roll tonight!): I fiiiinally get in my new apartment on Friday!!! It's going to be so good to finally be able to make a place completely my own and settle at least a little bit. It'll also be exciting to be able to have visitors without having to worry about putting out my roomies. NO. MORE. ROOMIES!!! Ugh. What a relief! Plus it'll practically be like Christmas when I open my stuff that got put into storage a mere 15 months ago.

Let's get real: that first sentence was a little cynical. This was more than a SEMI-positive post... I'd be so bold as say it was downright positive. Tonight I...

AM a happy panda!